In Free Fall: My Experiments with Living by Mallika Sarabhai, published by Speaking Tiger in 2022, is a candid and introspective memoir from one of India’s most iconic dancers, actors, and activists. The book is a deeply personal account of Sarabhai’s journey through physical, emotional, and mental challenges, and her continuous quest for self-acceptance and well-being. With characteristic wit and honesty, she explores her lifelong struggles with body image, health, grief, addiction, and the pressures of living up to a legendary family legacy, while also offering insights into her unconventional choices and the resilience that has defined her life.

In Free Fall stands out as an honest, down-to-earth, and inspirational memoir. It is never preachy; instead, it offers practical wisdom and encouragement for anyone struggling with self-image, health, or emotional setbacks. The book’s greatest strength lies in its ability to make readers feel seen and understood, regardless of their background. Sarabhai’s story demonstrates that even those born into privilege face their own struggles, and that self-acceptance is a universal challenge.

1. Body Image and Health Obsession A major thread in the memoir is Sarabhai’s “thirty-year obsession with being thin,” detailing her battles with bulimia, anorexia, and a relentless pursuit of the ‘perfect’ body. She openly discusses her experiences with various diets, alternate therapies like Pranik healing, Ayurveda, and colour therapy, as well as beauty treatments aimed at “future-proofing” her body for her demanding dance career.2. Addiction and Recovery Sarabhai does not shy away from her struggles with addiction, particularly smoking, and how she managed to “hypnotize” herself out of it. Her openness about these personal battles gives the memoir a relatable and human touch.3. Coping with Grief and Loss The memoir is also a chronicle of grief. Sarabhai writes movingly about the loss of her father, the eminent scientist Vikram Sarabhai, in 1971, and her mother, the legendary dancer Mrinalini Sarabhai, in 2016. She describes how yoga, dance, transcendental meditation, and Non-Violent Communication (NVC) helped her cope with these profound losses.4. Relationships and Family Sarabhai discusses her relationships with candour, including a painful breakup and the complexities of raising children while navigating her own emotional landscape. She also offers glimpses into her illustrious family, providing both heartwarming and intriguing anecdotes.5. Resilience and Self-Acceptance The book is ultimately about coming to terms with oneself—accepting imperfections, learning from mistakes, and finding a lifestyle that works for you. Sarabhai’s journey is marked by resilience, a willingness to experiment, and the courage to pick herself up after every fall.

Mallika Sarabhai is a towering figure in Indian arts and activism. As the daughter of Mrinalini and Vikram Sarabhai, she inherited a legacy of excellence in both the arts and sciences. Her own career as a Kuchipudi and Bharatanatyam dancer, actor, and co-director of the Darpana Academy for Performing Arts, has been marked by a commitment to using the arts for social change. Through her productions and activism, she has raised awareness about education, human rights, and women’s empowerment, both in India and globally.The memoir provides rare insights into the personal life of someone who has consistently challenged societal norms—whether by performing internationally while pregnant, or by integrating contemporary issues into classical dance. Her willingness to discuss taboo topics like eating disorders, addiction, and mental health is particularly significant in the Indian context, where such conversations are often stigmatized.

By sharing her vulnerabilities and struggles, Sarabhai has contributed to a broader cultural shift towards openness about mental health, body image, and self-care in India. Her memoir encourages readers to reject perfectionism and embrace authenticity. It has inspired many, especially women, to confront their own insecurities and to seek holistic well-being rather than conforming to societal expectations.The book has also sparked conversations about the pressures faced by public figures and the importance of self-compassion. Its impact extends beyond the arts community, resonating with anyone interested in personal growth, resilience, and the pursuit of happiness.

In Free Fall: My Experiments with Living is more than just a memoir; it is a guide to living authentically and courageously. Mallika Sarabhai’s story is a testament to the power of vulnerability, experimentation, and perseverance. Through humour, wisdom, and unflinching honesty, she invites readers to accept their own imperfections and to find joy in the ongoing process of self-discovery. The book is a valuable addition to contemporary Indian literature, offering both inspiration and practical lessons for anyone seeking to live a fuller, freer life.